Hey Lady B, How are you? Last night I thought about the movie Pollyanna, she always saw the positive. She told the preacher that there was plenty of "positive" verses in the Bible, but he always preached on the negative ones. For the non-believer or an ex-believer, it's similar. It's easier to focus on the negative--the contradictory, the verses that make God to be a cosmic bad guy. You know that the positive verses about who God fill you and make you spiritually alive. You see the verses that "appear" negative, that "seem" contradictory, but find ways to explain them to your liking. You might say that it's like God making a spiritual omelet--a few eggs had to be broken. Unfortunately, those eggs are people. People that appear innocent. Like Jobs kids, what did they do? They didn't get the opportunity to live a full life. And it was God that gave permission to the hit man. Job doesn't bother me, though. I see it as a nice, mythical story to teach a lesson. But in real life, real people do die--Like the kids at the school in Sandy Hook. For an all-knowing, all-loving God that is in control and orchestrating the events, it seems he should be able to get his will accomplished with less collateral damage. To say that in his fore-knowledge, he knew those kids wouldn't accept him. Or, that those that did believe and are happier place now in heaven with Jesus, only eases the believer's conscience. To the non-believer it looks like God's just playing games with us. It's the teachings and the way Christianity is presented that pushes a lot of us away. We look into other spiritual teachings that are easier to live with, that explain the real world in more just and sensible ways. We could be happy. We try to be happy, but then we have to put up with Christians telling us our new ways are false. That pushes some of us to look at that dark side of the Christian God and attack it. We're then called "blind" and "ignorant." We point out all the contradictory verses and say "no," that it's the Christians that are blind and ignorant. It's scary to think that you might be right...That God flooded the whole world and is going to send all non-believers--what a dilemma. You take care Lady B.