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Nothing my eye, Something for sure
I've lived without God hope most of my life. I even hoped against hope for there to be a God. That didn't go well. One of my major stumbling blocks in life is that nothing is permanent. I could suffer permanent memory loss or eventually death. There's nothing sacred to hold onto other than what I choose as sacred, or what becomes sacred through living.This is a continuation of a thread I started three months ago.
If you want to know why I would have no hope without trust in God you can read the OP of that thread:
Without God there is no hope
Please note that I was careful to change the title of this thread from Without God there is no hope to Without trust in God, I would have no hope, since I am only speaking for myself. I know that lots of people have hope without God, but I have no hope without God.
More and more I see the futility of trying to make things happen by virtue of my own free will. These are things I want but they are not fated by God to happen, at least not right now. As such, so all I can do is be patient and trust that God knows what is best for me, and that will unfold over the course of time. Without that trust in God, I would have no hope.
It is easy to have hope when you are happy and settled and have nothing to hope for, but it is not so easy when your life is up in the air.
“While a man is happy he may forget his God; but when grief comes and sorrows overwhelm him, then will he remember his Father who is in Heaven, and who is able to deliver him from his humiliations.”
‘Abdu’l-Bahá, Paris Talks, pp. 50-51
Life is a beautiful idea. If God runs this show I see it as being wasteful, and counter productive. God is not in nature is what I see.
As humans, all humans have many faults, and flaws, and are subject to blindness, errors, and mistakes. There's contrary paths in humanity of arrogance and hatred, vs. love and humility, and all points in between. There's lonely roads, crowded roads, and all kinds of paths to take.
I don't know if this is a good thing, but the divine truth sometimes makes me wonder if it's actually out there separate from the worlds. I keep holding onto the straw that there is some sort of a divine reality. I even hope it from time to time.
Then I look at the massive universal void, and all its chaos. I look at nature itself other than what humans have built, and I see aimlessness.
I see both divine truth, and total aimlessness, I see the wicked and the good, and live conflicted about God realities in my mind.
Why would such a world exist? Is there a truth going on in it that people can't see? Or, worse, is it a world where anything can happen for no good reasons at all? Is this life the point of it all?, Or is there another life that is the ultimate objective?
Do we create ourselves? Is there forces of good working on us? Is it only going to be what I make of it according to finite possibilities?
Where a person commits all there hopes and energies is very important while we are alive. Then there is the possibility that I've lived with false hopes in my life. Where do I put my ultimate desire, and is it an actual reality. Or am I living a dream that has no actuality.