No, it's not true.
Being myself is a sin according to Christianity.
You can't have it both ways. Either you didn't want to sin, by being yourself, or you did. Breaking the law makes you a criminal in the country you live in. You either have to stop doing that or get out of the country. You can't defend yourself against your actions by insisting the country change their laws to appease your nature.
I was very devoted amd sinning was tue last thing I wanted do.
Well, that's what it's about. That's true of everyone. We are all sinners, according to even apostate modern-day Christianity we inherited sin from Adam. All sin is the same, it all comes from the same source.
I left because I was miserable and unable to reconcile many contradictions and things not making sense and knowledge learned outside the insular bubble lead me to reading the Bible with my own eyes and being horrified at what I read.
Why were you miserable if you were devoted or why were you devoted if you were miserable? It doesn't make any sense, especially when it's not Christianity per se you have the problem with, it's the Bible and God. That's why I said I would have advised you to be yourself. Does that not make sense to you? Let's say a female friend of yours suddenly wanted you to change your relationship because she "fell in love" with you and she expected you to do the same, settle down and have a family. I've had that experience and I know many other gay men I knew did as well. Many of them did just that and were secretly practicing homosexuality without their family knowing it. A wife and kids at home.
And as was pointed out, you are doing what is being criticized.
First of all, I'm not a Christian, secondly, I don't think you are necessarily apostate just because you've abandoned apostate Christianity, though it sounds like you are apostate because of your admitted former devotion and your signature to Satan, since apostacy is defined as turning your back on God, thirdly being apostate isn't an insult to apostates, you only seem to be stigmatizing it in a derogatory sense. The question is why? It seems to me the entire point of your position is that you think Christianity should have changed to suit you. And fourthly, I'm not waving away what you went through because I've no idea what that is.
I advised you to be yourself, and that means turning your back on God. God gives us a choice in this life, to accept or reject him. Both are acceptable to him but you can't expect to say that he makes you miserable, is contradictory, doesn't make sense, creates an insular bubble and horrifies you. Especially after you've said you didn't want to sin and you were devoted -
prior to your having read the Bible?!
How do you think that is even possible?
You're just pissed that you don't belong in Christianity, that they can't accept you for what you are. But would you feel like that to your female friend in my analogy above? You hate God for what he is, because he isn't what
you think he should be. And that's fine. You should be apostate; you
should be yourself and you may think it unfortunate - maybe it is and maybe it isn't - but that's the way it should be. For you.
Everyone is different but everyone has their burden to bear.
The Christian Cult I left is still alive amd thriving.
What I mean is that Christianity was, in a sense, destroyed when it was turned into something else. Christianity is apostate. It adopted all sorts of pagan nonsense that has nothing to do with the Bible.
What it means is Christians wanting to be like poster and insist they know what others really believe.
I get so sick of that excuse. They think they know you and what you believe just as that counter complaint does the same.