This is what I dont understand, and help me please to understand, that is all I have ever asked for in the beginning. I can pretend I am a child learning the ways of the earth. As I look at the natural habitats of all things, from ants making anthills, to wolf packs, to trees rustling from the wind, all the way to human beings who have more than just instinct, we have the ability to reason. How did it all come to be? How does the caterpillar know how to become a butterfly? Something gave life. Something separated us from animals to have reason. What was it? Since this happened SO long ago, nobody knows for sure, but instead of living a life that is dreary from fear people cling on to some form of faith.
As a mother I can understand a little bit better on instincts, and also what it truly means to have unconditional love. In this earthly world, I gave life to my child. That young child has mocked me, has spit in my face, has told me he hates me when not getting his way, has sworn me off, has made me very sad at times. Would I ever turn him away? NEVER. I don't know what your relationship is like with your mother, but I do know that if it is anything like your own relationship with God, I can understand it. It is unconditional for me because the days when my son turns to me and beams a smile, says "I love you Mom", hugs me warmly, makes me gifts and kisses my cheek, I am beside myself with joy. That joy is the same joy many people on this earth look forward to with their spiritual creator. Why dont you want that? Why are you denying yourself that love, affection and wondrous joy? Because you insist he/she/it doesnt exist? Why are you doing that to yourself. You have the choice to believe whatever you want to, so why pick death? Wouldnt you rather be safe than sorry?
I was at a place where I didnt know which faith to believe in because I didnt want to be wrong. I feared the unknown. I feared not being with the right faith. However that fear still told me that I dont want to give up and simply not believe in anything simply because there is no factual, physical hard evidence in my hand to make me go, "Ahhh this is it! This is the correct way it was and this is now what I believe!" So what I found is that it doesnt matter which way you get there, buddism, hinduism, judaism, christianity, etc...as long as you do believe in one thing...the light, the good, the love, the positive energy, the right vs. the wrong. With that, you can't go wrong. All the in-between doesn't matter.
As an atheist, do you try to seek out further understanding of the spiritual world? Or have you simply given up because of your lack of evidence? If you truly look around, your evidence is EVERYWHERE! Try to see yourself in different places, try to see your behaviors in different animals, insects for example are amazing to understand, look up at the stars, and understand how they move. Look at the seasons changing. How can any of it be explained? It has been documented that upon a human being's last breath, at the exact moment of their bodily "death", they actually lose an ounce or so of weight as their spirit lifts out of their bodies. It has been documented by witnesses of that spirit lifting out of the body. Where do you think it goes?
If you put your mind in an open place to accept and understand, you may actually find miracles do happen. I have had so many experiences that simply cannot be explained. I have had the priviledge to read certain minds when I allow myself to. I have had the gift of seeing spiritual gatherings by allowing myself to let go of the fear. I have seen healings that cannot be explained. I have had dreams that become deja vu, that turn into reality, because I allow my mind to speak with God. If you tried, maybe you could too. The power is within yourself, but as you have made your choice as an atheist, you have slammed that opportunistic door closed. It is only unfortunate for you my friend. That is a fact. And that isnt even going down the path of how you personally need to get to those places via whatever alter, religion, book, ceremony, or way of life you choose.
Whatever happens to you atheists, I always wish you the best.